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sweating my way into beauty [Nov. 27th, 2004|11:21 am]
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[Current Mood |refreshedrefreshed]
[Current Music |Tsunami Bomb - No One's Looking]

So I started giving a shit about how I look -- specifically the fact that I've gained a ton of weight over the past six months, and that I used to look better...and I want that back. Thus and therefore, I've started hitting up the treadmill (2-3 miles a day, depending on how ambitious I am) and lifting weights every day, and I'm pretty determined to be hottie material by this summer. Please cross your fingers for me. I'm hoping to do the personal trainer thing sooner rather than later, but who knows how plausible that is with my crazy schedule. Either way, I'm gonna do what I have to do to get ripped. Bikini top and cargo shorts is what I'm shooting for. Yeah baby.

If you see me at a diner with anything more than some toast, a salad, and a cup of black coffee, please drag me into the parking lot and beat me into submission. Thank you.

Work is starting to get crazy -- with the holiday season upon us and all -- I was there until 1:30 last night; that was upsetting because I really wanted to see Lacy and spend some actual time with her. Alas, I was stuck looking after drunk people as usual. The money's been nothing to bitch about, though. If it keeps up like this I should be in good shape as far as bills are concerned. Got a lot coming up, with Lacy's birthday and Christmas, both of which I seriously need to start preparing for. I have ideas, more for the former than the latter, which I guess is okay because that one is first. Plus I work better under pressure when gift-giving is concerned, so I'm not gonna stress over it. It'll be taken care of.

The second half of Thanksgiving was much better than the first - I went to my aunt's house and saw a whole crapload of my mother's family. Much wine was consumed and a good time was had by all. Not too traumatic this year. Brian called to wish me a happy one, which was awesome, and I put him on the phone to talk to my grandma, because he loves her. And oh boy, does she love him back. I think they should date sometimes. Scratch that. I was being facetious. That would be creepy.

I stopped at a little thrift store down the street from work when I was trying to kill some time yesterday, and guess what I find the minute I walk in the door? A burgundy velvet blazer. DKNY. With pants to match. The tag says fifty which I am more than willing to pay because I fell in love with this thing, I then bring it up to the counter and the woman tells me it's TWENTY BUCKS. For a velvet DKNY suit. Made my fucking day. I can't squeeze my fat ass into the pants right now (which will hopefully change a few months down the road) but I'm wearing the jacket today and every day thereafter, for it is bitchin'. I look so scene, but so hot. I can't help it.

And if anyone can tell me if and when the new season of The L Word started, I'd appreciate it. Poor girl with basic cable...
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only in my dreams [Nov. 25th, 2004|04:33 pm]
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You are Bettie Page


Girl next door with a wild streak
You're a famous beauty - with unique look
And the people like you are cultish about it




What Famous Pinup Are You? Take This Quiz :-)




Find the Love of Your Life
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i wish turkey would put me into a coma [Nov. 25th, 2004|12:59 pm]
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[Current Mood |annoyedannoyed]

Have I mentioned I loathe holidays?

Am I supposed to get all gussied up to sit in my own house and get fat? My father seems to think so. I got bitched at for my jeans-and-a-polo ensemble the minute I came upstairs. I have to say that I called it. He also seems to think that the three times that I asked him when dinner was were for no reason. It was at two as far as I knew for the last week, now it's four. That means I have to sit around with people who are not my real family and pretend I care about what they're saying for three hours. Then I have to rush through dinner and take off to go see my grandmother, which I will rush through as well because at that point, I will be desperate to see my girlfriend so she can hold me while I shake and sob and moan about how much I detest this awful season.

It sucks that I can't just spend Thanksgiving with the person/people that I want to spend it with. I have obligations that piss me off.

I am trying hard not to think about what I would be doing if my mother were alive, but on days like this it's almost inevitable.

Happy Raping The Indians For All They're Worth Day, everyone. (and thank you, John)
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best quiz ever [Nov. 16th, 2004|09:05 am]
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Find your Role-Playing
Stereotype
at mutedfaith.com.


a power-gamer? moi? never...
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only in my dreams [Nov. 14th, 2004|12:02 pm]
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You Are Ani Difranco!


Honest, real, and well liked.
You're not limited by any boundaries.
"And you can call me crazy
But I think you're as lazy as white paint on the wall"





Who's Your Inner Rock Chick? Take This Quiz :-)




Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.





ohhhh ani...

could she be hotter? i think not.
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this one is slightly more amusing [Nov. 14th, 2004|11:58 am]
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An unexpected bonus for just about every guy on the planet.

He’s plowing you and you’re yelling for more.

Talk dirty, talk cheap, scream his name, scream complete gibberish. No matter.



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Maybe you’re the "Mary the Librarian" type by day.

But by night, honey, watch out.

The vocal chords let loose with everything your heart and mind have been thinking about all day long.



What Cocktail Are You?

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dumbest quiz EVER [Nov. 14th, 2004|11:52 am]
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You know for sure you're a lesbian, in fact, we're surprised if you've even dated a guy!


You just like being modest, which is totally fine.

But when you find the girl of your dreams, try to let loose before YOU are cut loose.



What Type of Lesbian Are You?

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grrr [Nov. 14th, 2004|11:30 am]
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[Current Mood |pessimisticpessimistic]
[Current Music |my own death rasps and a sewing machine]

Why is life such a losing battle? This week has had its good points, but on the whole has been for shit.

I find out two days ago that another one of my credit cards has gone to collections. This time it's a lot more serious. They want 400 bucks from me monthly between now and January. I can come up with this money no problem. But that means that I can't go back to school in January if I'm going to pay for it myself. Also, Lacy's birthday and Christmas are right around the corner. Should be interesting trying to find money for both of these occasions. I ask my father if he'd sign for a credit card solely for the purpose of charging my tuition. He tells me he's "gonna have to think about it." You do that, Dad. Think about what it will do to me to have to wait another nine months to go back to school. Think about where I should've been in life by this point had you been a responsible parent who gave half a shit about their child. You think long and hard about it, and you let me know.

As if that weren't enough, I went to Hollister with Lacy yesterday. While in there, I ran into Mel's mom and sister. They engaged me in a short conversation, and it was extremely awkward. I was caught quite off guard, and thus did not introduce Lacy to them, who was standing next to me. I understand this makes me a shithead, and so did Lacy. I hurt her again. I am fucking up left and right in this relationship.

I guess I didn't need to introduce her to them, being as they picked up on the fact that she was my new girlfriend and scurried downstairs to tell Mel, who promptly called me and asked for the key to the apartment back. I'm going there on Wednesday to get the last of my shit and to have the conversation, and the resulting fight, that I was trying to avoid all this time. I know it's not something i *can* avoid, at least not forever, but I'm not looking forward to it. A lot of shit is going to be dredged up and I can pretty much guarantee that I will leave in tears, and so will she. I don't like that. At all. But I guess it's part of being an adult and being mature about relationships. I now understand why people stay childish for the span of their natural lives.

On top of this, I'm sick again.

Where's the "reset" button?
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just lose it [Nov. 4th, 2004|03:06 pm]
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[Current Mood |excitedexcited]
[Current Music |assorted booty shakin' mix]

Days off are wonderful. This is my second consecutive one, and I have another tomorrow. Lovely.

I got so much done today; I'm very proud of myself. Super-Domestic Carly did all of her laundry, including bed linens, swept and vacuumed her room, did a little light organizing, read some of Geek Love, wrote some more of the biomythography that will one day make her an icon of literature, and managed to post on LJ. All before 4 PM. I am a champ.

It's very rainy and nasty outside right now. I love this weather. I want to go sit outside and write but the wind is blowing the rain under my awning so unless I want to get drenched i'm S.O.L. I think I'm done writing for today anyway...I spent a good two hours kicking it stream-of-consciousness style and now I'm pretty much spent. I forgot how good that feels. I'll revise at a later date, after it has time to ferment in my brain. Anyway, I need to rest up for tonight...

I get to go to Colosseum with Lacy tonight! Booty dancing with my hot girlfriend ALWAYS makes me happy! We haven't been there in a while so both of us are really looking forward to it; plus neither one of us is closing this time, which means we can actually get there before 11:30, thus extending the evening and optimizing our good time. One downside: I thought I'd have a lot more money, but Tuesday was fucking dead at my bar, and I got cut from the dinner shift that night, so cash is relatively low. HOWEVER, I found out that if we get there before 9, there's no cover. Between the 25 bucks I'll save there, and the fact that I have enough booze left over from Halloween to choke a small horse, I think we'll manage. The word of the day is pregame, kids.

And to top off the wonderful evening, I get to spend the night with her as well. That's the best part.

I haven't mentioned how profoundly I feel for this girl in any of my posts. It's quite amazing. Completely new things are springing up inside me, and it's all her fault, and I love it. Life is crazy sometimes. Thank God that for a change, it's crazy in a totally good way.
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Say a prayer for the youth of America [Nov. 3rd, 2004|10:33 am]
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[Current Mood |sickdisgusted]
[Current Music |Strife - In This Defiance]

Well, I can't say I'm surprised.

Barring a small miracle regarding the provisional ballots in Ohio, we as Americans leave our fate in the hands of a warmongering, Puritanical, and generally incapable man for another four years.

Despite the outcry of the youth across the country against Bush, the national percentage of young people voting was exactly the same as in 2000.

Do i think that there are 136,000 more people in Ohio who didn't vote that would have voted against Bush? You bet your ass I do. There are probably twice that number of lazy, disenchanted college students who can't stand Dubya and probably badmouth him every chance they get. The people with the strongest opinions are usually the people who do the least about them.

That's the part that makes me sick.

I can now forget about ever getting married if I want to stay in this country, because in four years' time, I'm sure it will be federally banned. I can forget the feeling of safety and trust in my nation's leader, because national security, and in effect, my security, will be left in the care of someone with his own personal and financial agenda. I can forget about affordable education or health care, because this President does not have my best interests at heart.

Because 136,000 people did not take advantage of their rights as Americans, I will lose some of mine.

I hope we learn from this election that apathy and inaction can be as dangerous a weapon as any. God help us all.
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